Of course this would be the first thing I ever post on here, but why not start with a bang right? I broke up with my fiance a few days ago and have yet to show any real emotion about it, honestly it’s because I’m afraid to, but who can blame me? The downside however if it makes me think people are thinking I don’t care about him, like it wasn’t a big deal. It was. He’s called me pathetic for surrounding myself with people but it’s because if there are people everywhere I don’t have to think about it. I haven’t actually talked to him either because I don’t think that I can. I know wholeheartedly that this was the right choice but I know if I talk to him he will just make me feel like the awful person I’m starting to think I truly am. I’m not sure where exactly I’m going with this post I guess I just wanted to say this; it sucks, I don’t know who I am anymore, and it doesn’t feel real.
